How much more.

Chet and I have been dating for 6 months. I couldn't have imagined all of the joy he has brought me. 

I am living in Haiti for three months. Being away from Chet has probably been the hardest aspects of this so far...harder than I anticipated. We have been fortunate in that we have been able to communicate in some form every day since I left. Even though being apart is hard, we both agree that it will be good for us in the long run. We get to work on really communicating with one another. Listening to one another. Caring for one another. And continuing to learn about one another. All while 3000 miles apart. We are forced to be intentional with our time. It is easy to ‘be’ together while sitting on the couch watching an episode of Alias. And I love those  moments, but it takes more thought, more time, more energy to be together while we are apart.

So we have started asking each other questions everyday. Silly questions. Serious questions. Just to be intentional with the other person. Each morning, the first thing I do is read his email. I eat it up. I cant wait to see how he answered whatever questions I asked. And I learn something new about him. 

There have been moments when my own insecurities start to fill my mind and I don’t understand why Chet loves me, I hear God’s voice saying, How much more, Andrea. How much more do I love you. This human love is just a glimpse of how much I love you and want to be with you. As I laid on my bed this afternoon, I began to think about relationships and how that is one of God’s way of showing his love for us. I thought about how we are really trying to be intentional (I keep using this word, I don’t have another good one) with each other and how easy it is to stop. Then I thought about how much easier it is to stop being intentional with God. 

As I sat this morning, watching the chickens and lizards and goats (Im pretty sure these chicken lizards and goats are going to make it into every post) I was reminded of the Do not worry verses in Matthew. He cares for those chickens and lizards and goats. HOW MUCH MORE does he care for me!

The Creator of the Universe who knows me. Loves me. And wants me. All of me. Is waiting each morning for me to sit with him as he tells me and shows me more about himself. I just need to show up and listen.