I am a professional worrier. Its what I do and I do it well! If nothing else, this process has been a lesson in letting go and trusting. There have been so many times where I have to take a step back and rememeber why I am doing this. I believe God has led me to this point, so I have to trust that he will continue.

"I am leading you, step by step, through your life. Hold my hand in trusting dependence, letting me guide you through this day. Your future looks uncertain and feels flimsy- even precarious. That is how it should be. Secret things belong to the Lord, and future things are secret things. When you try to figure out the future, you are grasping as things that are mine. This, like all forms or worry, is an act of rebellion: doubting my promises to care for you.

When you find yourself worrying about the future, repent and return to me. I will show you the next step forward, and the one after that, and the one after that. Relax and enjoy the journey in My presence, trusting me to open up the way before you as you go" -Jesus Calling

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I sat in bed on Saturday morning feeling discouraged. A major detail I thought was taken care of had just fallen through. And I was at 0% support raised. My desperate prayers have sounds like, "Ok, God. If you want me do this, then you have a lot of work to do to make this happen." There are some days where I can remind myself that God is good. He is faithful. And that simple reminder will help me let go of the fear I am holding on to. There are other days, like Saturday, where I have to say it over and over and hope that the more I say it, the more I will believe it. 

I pulled up my devotional that day and read, "Rest in the comfort of My presence, remembering that nothing is impossible with Me. Pry your mind away from your  problems so you can focus your attention on Me. Recall that I am able to do immeasurably more than all you ask or imagine."

By the end of that weeekend, I was close to having 10% of my support raised as well as finding out those details that fell through were taken care of once again, working out even better than before. 

Thankfully, God's goodness isnt dependent on my ability to believe it!

I continue to repeat the words to my favorite song at the moment:

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand Will be my guide

Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You've never failed and You won't start now

I looked at my calendar this last week and was overwhelmed with all that needs to be done in such a short amount of time. While I dont have a plane ticket yet (I have to have 95% of my support raise before I can purchase it) , I am hoping to leave by the end of March. 6 weeks away.

Living in another country for 3 months. Dependence on others to help get me to Haiti. Language. Little time to process what I am actually stepping into. A busy schedule the next month and a half. As overwhelming as it all it as times, I am getting more and more excited about going.

Would you pray:

• For all of the details that need to come together before I go.
• Safety
• Boldness and openness to whatever God wants to do 
• That I would make time to be in prayer and in the word before I go.
• Peace

I am still in need of supporters. Would you consider helping me get to Haiti?

Go to www.efca.org/give

Click on Give Now. Be sure to put Andrea France (2803) in the designation field.